Quite Anxious...

Last Sunday husband #1 called me and asked me if I'd allow Little Princess to go to Mexico with his mom. (She's in town visiting his gramma til today). They want to keep her for once month and then she'd come home Dec 2 with his sister. I was torn. He told me to not feel pressure that it would be OK to say NO, but....I thought and thought and cried a little at the thought of her leaving me, especially at this time. Finally, I decided to just let her go. The Dr. had told me that I could go at anytime, regardless of being only 37 weeks. So I figured I'd just try to help the little guy along. We went for walks, I ate spicy foods, and a few other tricks I'd heard but won't mention publicly. Nothing worked. I'd get light contractions for about an hour but I've been having those for about a month. Discouraging. I was starting to panic, Little Princess had to meet her little brother before going to Mexico. Or that was my thought on the matter. Luckily husband #1 called Wednesday night and said that some things with her being a minor and purchasing her ticket weren't working out and that she wouldn't be able to go this time to Mexico, but that they are planning a time in the spring. Phew, what a relief. Honestly I wanted to cry out of happiness. I was so relieved. But now, I'm just wanting to still get this little boy out of my belly, off my hips, and into my arms. Lover boy really wanted to have him on Halloween. Missed that one. Then yesterday (Saturday) I woke up with stronger contractions than I've had and was leaking fluid...so we decided to work it out so that I'd work my body to get into labor. I did start having really strong contractions last night. It was a very similar feeling to the night I went into labor with Little Princess. I decided I should get my bag packed and the babies things packed and get ready. Lover boy was getting excited and helping get everything together. We put in a movie and I dealt with the contractions, they weren't very consistent so I didn't even try to time them. By the time we climbed into bed I was a bit disappointed that nothing more had happened. Then around 4 this morning the contractions were stronger and closer together, but still nothing to be too concerned about....As time passes they are getting stronger, but....I'm just getting so anxious. I just want to go up to the hospital and be in labor. Ugh....Soon enough I know, but...